Grin and Bear It

I am the lie you tell yourself
I am the broken promise you made
The failed resolutions to do better
I am the debt you left unpaid

I am the fight you thought to win
I am the vow that tried to be true
Here’s to all good intentions
I am the oath you always undo

I am the wall you will never scale
I am the gutted not gloried
Self-deception is all the rage
I am the fabled morality story

I am the addiction you never beat
I am the step you started to take
That pithy quote meant to inspire
I am the journey you never make

I am the night you struggle to sleep
I am the contract signed in haste
Time heals over more than scars
I am year upon year gone to waste

I am the forgotten letter to write
I am the hope that sputters and sparks
Bend to my will and try not to break
I am the voice that weeps in the dark